"Peace to you, Maureen"

Today at church little Gabe, who is three, came running up to me from the other end of the church saying, "Peace to you, Maureen". (He has never done that before) The hug that followed those words were a reminder to me of the movement of the Spirit in all of us. We never know to whom or when our actions and words impact someone deeply. Let them be kind words with a gentle healing touch.

Thank you Gabe for a most special blessing today.

Namaste'
Maureen

The Path

I take an early morning walk often. It is the same route . I begin behind my house on a dirt road. The entire walk is on a dirt path that passes horse farms, cows, a stream and green pastures. There is beauty in every season that I walk this path.

My walk stills my soul.

I especially love the sound of the dirt under my sneakers. I always notice it and it creates a simple music and rhythm to my steps. This morning I couldn't help but think about how this is the dirt from which God created life . I am sculpted from its clay and fired upon by the very breath of God. Today on my walk I felt more aware of this than ever before.

As the breeze cooled my steps and the sun began to rise, I though of this verse:

"Just like the clay in the potter’s hand, so are you in my hand, O house of Israel."

Jeremiah 18:6 NSRV

Gods finger prints are all over us. He centers us,or shapes us and even restores us from collapse, he transforms us in ways we never imagined.

As I continued on my walk, a place inside me opened up and let go to a softness in nature. I felt like I belonged to the earth, and the gentle breeze had secrets to tell me. The garden of my spirit rested in the dewy sent of honeysuckle nectar and there it was...the peace that passes all understanding... Presence meeting me and calling me by name.

My walk stills my soul.

Namaste'
Maureen

Psalm 23

The Lord is my shepherd, I shall not want.
He makes me lie down in green pastures; he leads me beside still waters;
he restores my soul. He leads me in right paths for his name’s sake.
Even though I walk through the darkest valley, I fear no evil; for you are with me; your rod and your staff— they comfort me.
You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies; you anoint my head with oil;

my cup overflows.
Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life, and I shall dwell in the house of the Lord my whole life long. (NSRV)

I love this psalm. There is something so comforting in its simplistic beauty. It brings such comfort and calm to my soul. It is a calling from the Holy Spirit for an awareness of steadfast guidance by the Lord. I am blessed with the perfect harvest of everyting I need , a life of abundance that leads to that peace that passes all understanding. This love of God comforts me now, in times of joy and sorrow and with the covenant of peace, rest and joy with God.

Namaste'
Maureen

Emmaus Blessing
by Jan Richardson

Already a blessing
in the walking

already a blessing
on the road

already a blessing
drawing near

already a blessing
in the listening

already a blessing
in the burning hearts

already a blessing
in the almost evening

already a blessing
in the staying

already a blessing
at the table

already a blessing
in the bread

already a blessing
in the breaking

already a blessing
finally known

already a blessing
give us eyes

already a blessing
let us see.

Doubting Thomas

One of the disciples, Thomas (nicknamed the Twin), was not with the others when Jesus came. They told him, "We have seen the Lord!" But he replied, "I won't believe it unless I see the nail wounds in his hands, put my fingers into them, and place my hand into the wound in his side." Eight days later the disciples were together again, and this time Thomas was with them. The doors were locked; but suddenly, as before, Jesus was standing among them. He said, "Peace be with you." Then he said to Thomas, "Put your finger here and see my hands. Put your hand into the wound in my side. Don't be faithless any longer. Believe!" "My Lord and my God!" Thomas exclaimed. Then Jesus told him, "You believe because you have seen me. Blessed are those haven't seen me and believe anyway." John 20: 24-29

Doubting Thomas." If you look up this phrase in the dictionary, you'll find something like: "one who habitually or instinctively doubts or questions." A "doubting Thomas" is somebody who always lags behind in matters of faith. A "doubting Thomas" always needs more proof, more time. A "doubting Thomas" has a hard time trusting others.

I personally think Thomas gets a bad rap. I mean, how would you like it if your name went down in history attached to "doubting"? How would it feel to know that every time someone uses your name it had a negative connotation? Growing up, that is how I recall learning about Thomas...Doubting Thomas. This always made me think that Thomas was a coward.He is not a coward at all.

Thomas was willing to be honest even when it wasn't pretty, even when others were not quite so truthful. Thomas gives us the freedom to be more honest with our own faith , or lack of it. I think we all need to be more like Thomas, not by doubting more but by being honest with God and each other.

Do you connect with Thomas?

I do.

I wish I had more of Thomnas in me.

Maybe you connect with Thomas because, like him, you don't believe Jesus or you are having a crisis of faith...Or you've heard your friends and family members tell you how great it is to be a Christian....You hear great sermons talk about God's love in Christ, but you're still not sure. After all, how can this really be relevant in you life now. So you can relate to Thomas as one who stands on the outside of faith, peering in.

I wonder what I would have done if I were in Thomas' shoes. I'm not sure. Would I have been able to accept the testimony of the other disciples. I ask myself how many times have I doubted my faith even when those around me have guided me with theirs?

The wonderful thing about God is that he can handle it. Imgaine that. God can handle our doubts and he will meet us there, giving enough faith to take that step. Sometimes we wait....and we wait. We wait for the courage to step out in faith or we wait because God has us wait.

Jesus chose to let Thomas wait. He didn't show up right away to relieve Thomas's fears. We don't know why. We don't know what needed to happen in Thomas before Jesus appeared to him. All we know is that Jesus made him wait. Boy, that sound familiar. Things really do happen in God's timing and when we can honeslty look back, it is a comfort to say, "of course, this is how it is suppose to be.

I have had times in my life where I have waited. For days, honestly for years, I cried out to God for help. And for days God was silent. For days I begged to see God. And for days the eyes of my heart were blind. It was one of the most desperate, terrifying, and empty times of my entire life. And God seemed to have abandoned me during that time, my "eight days" of waiting, if you will. Of course God really didn't abandon me. I abandoned my trust I God, in God's promise...just like Thomas.

I don't know what God was doing with Thomas during his eight days of wiating, but when I wait during my periods in the desert and doubt, God has broken my pride and set me free from my self-reliance. During my waiting God has prepared me for something and teaching me that I could not do it alone.

Jesus meets Thomas where he is. Jesus gently and mercifully offers Thomas exactly what he had wanted. Jesus met Thomas right where he was. He offered himself to Thomas: "Here, touch me, and believe."

This is what He does for me. This is what He does for all of us...if we let Him. In His time and in His way, Jesus comes to us and makes himself known to us. Sometimes he does it in the way we have wanted. Sometimes he doesn't. But he always gives us exactly what we really need. And it comes, not because we've earned it, but by grace and because he loves us unconditionally.

I love when Thomas said, "My Lord and my God!" This makes him the first person in the gospels, to confess Jesus not only as Lord, but also as God. Doubting Thomas? No. Bold Thomas, yes! Faithful Believing Thomas, yes!

I think this is where honesty with God leads. This is the outcome of an open confession of doubt. This is not pretend faith. It's a genuine faith that issues from the deepest recesses of our soul. It's a faith that transforms our lives. It's the sort of faith that I want and it is the faith that grows when we say yes to God.

Jesus finishes his encounter with Thomas: "You believe because you have seen me. Blessed are those who haven't seen me and believe anyway." This is a word of encouragement for you and me, because we don't get to see Jesus and we believe and in this we are blessed. God has chosen to pour out his goodness upon us, to be gracious to us, to reveal his Son to us.

I am thankful to Thomas for doubting and exploring his doubts with Jesus.

I think there is a Thomas is all of us.

Namaste',

Maureen

Finding New Life This Easter

It was important to me to have solitude this Lent. It was a longing and an aching for....almost as if God was calling me there. God took care of me and provided this solitude in many ways, even in the business of my life. In this quiet God's Spirit could not go unnoticed. Here I have learned this inner solitude is my place of peace, apart from the world, apart from my pain and struggles. It is lived with God and it breathes new life into me. Resurrection life. Resurrection hope.

My soul is soaking up the power of the resurrected life of Jesus.

I couldn't have solitude peace and new life, without my living in my wilderness. Dare I say, thank you God for my wilderness? I have been tempted, lonely and in despair. It has been so very hard. Because of my faith I knew you were with me even when I doubted . As I let go of my doubts and fears and trusted you in my darkness, You blessed me. This journey has been hard but is also has been life giving. I now also feel you with me like I never have before.

So I do thank you for my wilderness. It has given me new life with you.

Cherish the dark's obsurity.

Look for diamonds in the debris.

Thank God for all His mystery and LIVE.

Namaste'

Maureen

Resurrection Light

Resurrection Light

I wait for the light that my darkness can not overcome

I wait for the light that was in the beginning

and that burns still in the brilliance of the in the rising sun

I wait for the light, that glow of life that gleams in the growing earth

and glistens in the sea and sky

I wait for your light, O God

in the ever living flame of my soul

I wait for the light of your grace

to see my way out

my tomb is sealed

Grant me the grace to Resurrection wholeness